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What Have I Done??

I confess that I find myself asking fairly often, “what have I done to cause this?”

Just earlier today, I said out loud (I was alone  )….”Dear God, what else do I need to repent of?” Now, I don’t know if I would have said that if I had been standing face to face with Him in the physical sense, but I do believe that He must have kinda thought about it a bit….’cause the phone rang. It wasn’t a huge deal, but enough to say to me that sometimes it’s not about repenting, it’s about waiting. And to be honest, most of the time it’s easier to repent than to wait.

During these last few minutes, I’ve found myself remembering the Scripture..”While you were yet sinners, Christ died for your sins”. If He has died for me in my sins, then I’m just gonna believe that He’s loving me enough to see my heart and not always judge me as guilty guilty guilty just because the struggle is hard in finding a way to believe.

Yes, I need to repent when I’ve missed His “mark” for my life....I’m just convinced that He’s not wanting me to live in a constant fear of having not repented enough. It’s on HIS righteousness that I stand and I live!!!

I’m better now .

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  1. Linda CJune 2, 2011 at 1:49 PM

    I loved this post, Ann. I can really relate to it. I am totally dependent on Jesus' righteousness to save me because I will never be good enough on my own. Do you remember the old song, "I don't know why Jesus loved me..I don't know why He cared..I don't know why He sacrificed His life..but I'm glad..so glad He did. That pretty much says it all. I'm glad you're feeling better.

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